I chose to meet him at 16 and conceived a little boy
But then the screaming Beating came, I was his little toy.
Bashed and bruised emotions Down I tried to keep so strong,
But insecure he made me the road was just too long.
Fear and hope combine the two, imbalance in the brain
This man he is has messed me up Evil running through his vein.
Holding on and praying when will this ever end
A week a month years to come please let me know my friend
Time is of the essence need a Miracle today
I made the choice to leave Him, today I had my way.
Separated longing pain I missed Him don’t know why
Its cause He made me insecure and all I did was cry
The scares are kept for many Years buried deeper than Ashore
The worthless piece of chicken meat grinding my inner core.
My life goes on and meets a prince, a man to comfort me
, I felt so good and precious this is meant to be.
Choices made to have more kids 3 times I went that way,
2 boys a girl A gift from god nothing more to say.
Oh damn my life what happened now His not who he seems to be,
A betraying Man not good to us not honest true to me.
He took my boy for granted my child was not His son,
He used him for his pleasure I wish I had a gun.
Sickly minded monster covered in disguise
Made us believe and listen to all his dreadful Lies.
My womanhood his taken don’t feel pretty Sweet no more,
Self confidence has lost its root what’s there to live for.
Another man, no not this time have tried it once again,
No trust respect no honesty just Misery and pain.
In different ways his just like them, He knows my life my past,
Weak and fragile he sees me and knows I cannot last.
So use me and abuse me and break me down not to be found,
Kick me while I’m lying yelping on the ground.
Your words are causing silent death not seeing who u are
A dreadful selfish hand machine my hearts a bleeding scar
My choices made to love someone and live a simple life
With kids and pets a precious home a husband and a wife.
The choices made were not as wrong as I did not know for sure
And now I search and search for more Not finding someone pure.
My life has taken places no one wants to be,
A place where sadness throttles through Pain and agony.
The choices made decisions kept Is where I am this time
But why me lord the choices made Ain’t never been a crime.
So much hurt frustration Carved through with a knife
A throbbing pain not healing this is my heart my life.
I only wanted happiness a man to love me true
A man to be my anchor and Hold me when I’m blue
Patience understanding, a hero by my side
the one who takes Me as his wife a beautiful pure Bride
My savior higher up above looking down on me
Crying asking why my child please set your heart a free
Forgive and take the moment you are beautiful in my eyes
live your life and love yourself I’m here to wipe your cries
In South Africa today security plays a vital part in any business or private home. This book and the volumes to follow, will guide you step by step through the essential precautionary measures to be taken in protecting your family and valuables. From employing security guards, evacuation of your site and security measures to burglar bars and alarms in your private home.
a Book compiled by me from experience gained after 10 years in the security industry as Industrial relations officer with Nosa qualifications, 1st Aid, fire protection and also S.O.B. grade A.
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