I’m feeling tender today
Afraid someone might touch
And that it will hurt so much
Not my skin and not my flesh
But in my heart and soul
Tender feelings, this I feel
Hope for better days and
Memories of happy times past
Cannot reach my tender heart
Where normally I do not cry
Tears want to flow
With no end in sight
Afraid of voices, of words that hurt
Turning inside myself
Where they cannot reach
Thoughts running in my head
Touching here, touching there
Not wanting to carry their weight
Tiredness dragging my thoughts
Touching my heart
Draining my body
In my heart and soul and in my thoughts
In my hands, fingers, feet and toes
This feeling, fear and tenderness reach
Fragile and fearful, hiding here in my thoughts
Only touching happy memories
Tears forming in my eyes
Wondering what will be, if I will be strong again
Be able to take on what comes my way?
Where did my strength go, why do I feel so weak inside
Hard words hit their target;
Letting me stagger two steps back
Grabbing onto myself, turning as not to fall
Sadness that they can hurt me so
Fear for any more coming my way
Pain from the direct hit into my tenderness
Friends and family with power they do not know
Hitting and hurting
Attacking my heart, head and soul
I’m feeling tenderness and fear
Knowing where I reach, but having no strength
Hoping and praying that He will take hold of me
For this I am today
Weak inside, tender to touch
Hurting from all things I see, feel and fear
People do not see, they care none at all
That I will fall, fall, fall, into that darkness calling to me
So I do not tell, try not to show, fighting here
Feeling the strain of fighting this thing
This blackness, this tiredness, this tenderness
The names may vary, the description hold true
The weight dragging me down
Feels like two hands pushing on my shoulders
Into the darkness where I cannot be reached
God, Father, Savior
Reach for me, for I do not have the strength
Hold me, make me whole, fill my soul with You
Tiredness, fear and tender feelings show
In my eyes, even when you do not see
I want to scream, but who will listen
No one see, no one hear, no one feel the fear
My head feel this drumming, this sound no one hear
Drowning out all the voices of the people around me
People who do not listen, please hear me
Friends who do not see the pain, look at me
Family who does not feel the fear, watch out
Save me, help me, take this all away
Grab my hand, touch my face, wipe away a tear
Lead me to a place away from here, to be safe again
Where I call smell the grass, touch the cool leaves
Listen to the wind, feel the sun on my skin
Lie on my back, close my eyes and feel safe.
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